Fucking shit, Why is it that people always ask for my help when I don't want them to ask me. It's when I'm busy or I don't want to be stuck with other peoples' problems dothey come up to me and ask me to do this, to help them, to do whatever. It's fucking bullshit and annoys the crap out of me, I hate it when people do that, When I have other things I would rather be doing then their dumb shit. This world is so fucked up that sometimes I just want out of it right then and there. Just once in my lifetime, can I actually have moment of longlasting happiness that doesn't end in a shitload of destruction and depression and anger.

Ya, so I'm like super bored right now, Listening to Down and out by Tantric right now. I listened to this last night like a billion times because I was so into it. I'm jsut one of those people who like to play songs over and over that sound really great ya know. Ok well maybe I'm jsut going to go to shockwave now or something.

So, what's up? Eh, nothing much on this side of the spectrum. Just wanna go to homecoming but without the dress because it will hamper my sexy moves, hahaha, kidding!!! :P. But, I think it's alright to have a dress, I mean it makes it look pretty ya know. But jeans and a tshirt for me is more flexible to dance in. But whatever ya know, I hope it has waay better music than last year. Last year's music was like crap on a cracker. I was not like into it, however, I jsut danced to the random songs I didn't know because it is homecoming and you msut dance away the night with your friends :P. But anywho, really bored :/. Maybe I'll go see if I can play Halo 2 on my brother's computer. Maybe finally finish the campaign XD. Ciao!

Heey!! wow, i haven't gone on here for a looooong time....longer even, haha. And no one reads this so I really don't give a crap. Haha, unless my parents secretly have this blog under watch from....the middle of 8th grade O_o....that is a sad life if they moniter this blog, haha. Anywho, nothing much to report except im now a sophmore...yea, puurty coo. It is really, but this year is like a bitch because there is soo much work and its really annoying. And my Renaissance fair group fails at communicating....skinning them alive i will....I was looking at my old 8th grade yearbook last night and found my pics and was like, "wow i grew up so much and dont look like a little kid....msot of the time O_o". Haha, ya im jsut a little tiny person and piggy tails make me seem like a little kid :P. Don't worry, goes with my whole" im innocent, i didnt do it". haha, ya, but i could tell i really grew up, got some bangs, shorter hair but growing it out a bit to a few below my shoulder, layers are awesome :P.
I also realized how much my friends grew up too. Some turned into complete sluts but ya know, i dont really let go of friends. just my thing ya know. like i dont let go of the guy whose heart i broke :/....he doesn't talk to me much but I want to try and stay friend's even though I broke his heart over summer and he found out over myspace that I have a bf...yea :/ not good, I don't recommend for girls to do that to guys, because that is jsut freaking cruel and I should have known better. I'm ok at fixing relationships of other people, but the relatioships I have are like complete crap and I have no direction to go in and become confused. But I'm learning....little by little, haha.
But anywho, not a good subject to talk about, I could jsut go on and on about that because I have a lot to say and I don't really talk to people about my problems that much often. I'm like a person who likes to keep me to myself. Because I feel like people don't understand me....even I don't understand me a lot and that jsut scares me O_o. I mean I become upset, but when I try to decifer why I'm upset, I just don't know....I really don't, I have a thought but I can't put it clearly or in words. Or sometimes it is jsut so complicated I don't even want to think about it ya know.
Wow, I realized I like typing a lot because I like watching my hands move really fast and am amazed by how I learned how to type by myself. See, I don't do well with people teaching me how t odo things. Sometimes I need them to help me beacuse it jsut seems impossible to me ya know. But sometimes I learn everything on my own like looking some words up in the dictionary instead of loooking like a retard in front of friends....haha maybe not that but i taught myself how t oride the bike and type with all my fingers.
Anywho, I think that is a good size amount for now...until I remember again about this
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