Heey!! wow, i haven't gone on here for a looooong time....longer even, haha. And no one reads this so I really don't give a crap. Haha, unless my parents secretly have this blog under watch from....the middle of 8th grade O_o....that is a sad life if they moniter this blog, haha. Anywho, nothing much to report except im now a sophmore...yea, puurty coo. It is really, but this year is like a bitch because there is soo much work and its really annoying. And my Renaissance fair group fails at communicating....skinning them alive i will....I was looking at my old 8th grade yearbook last night and found my pics and was like, "wow i grew up so much and dont look like a little kid....msot of the time O_o". Haha, ya im jsut a little tiny person and piggy tails make me seem like a little kid :P. Don't worry, goes with my whole" im innocent, i didnt do it". haha, ya, but i could tell i really grew up, got some bangs, shorter hair but growing it out a bit to a few below my shoulder, layers are awesome :P.
I also realized how much my friends grew up too. Some turned into complete sluts but ya know, i dont really let go of friends. just my thing ya know. like i dont let go of the guy whose heart i broke :/....he doesn't talk to me much but I want to try and stay friend's even though I broke his heart over summer and he found out over myspace that I have a bf...yea :/ not good, I don't recommend for girls to do that to guys, because that is jsut freaking cruel and I should have known better. I'm ok at fixing relationships of other people, but the relatioships I have are like complete crap and I have no direction to go in and become confused. But I'm learning....little by little, haha.
But anywho, not a good subject to talk about, I could jsut go on and on about that because I have a lot to say and I don't really talk to people about my problems that much often. I'm like a person who likes to keep me to myself. Because I feel like people don't understand me....even I don't understand me a lot and that jsut scares me O_o. I mean I become upset, but when I try to decifer why I'm upset, I just don't know....I really don't, I have a thought but I can't put it clearly or in words. Or sometimes it is jsut so complicated I don't even want to think about it ya know.
Wow, I realized I like typing a lot because I like watching my hands move really fast and am amazed by how I learned how to type by myself. See, I don't do well with people teaching me how t odo things. Sometimes I need them to help me beacuse it jsut seems impossible to me ya know. But sometimes I learn everything on my own like looking some words up in the dictionary instead of loooking like a retard in front of friends....haha maybe not that but i taught myself how t oride the bike and type with all my fingers.
Anywho, I think that is a good size amount for now...until I remember again about this
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