Please let me go from these bonds of what ever I am. I'm only angry and upset and sad all the time. I can't be happy for others when I so wish what they have for myself most of my life. And love is so hard. What is love? I obviously don't know the meaning of it because I can't keep it loyal to the one I supposedly love. Is it too much to be angry when that significant other is texting your friends to protect you? But I don't like it. Just something about it makes me want to shout I CAN PROTECT MYSELF, I DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL MY FRIENDS TO PROTECT ME OR YOU TO PROTECT ME. I can protect myself because if I rely on other people then I will forever rely on other people to protect me. I can find my own strength. And what do I need protection from? Tell me that. This is ridiculous. I obviously don't know what love is and can't keep my faith to it. I don't even know why you are still with me. It's because I am your first probably. Should I move on or try to stay with you and just continue this war between us because I know that both of our hearts will be broken if we walked away from each other? But how can we stay together if our hearts are being broken still, even yours...