Is it possible to be this tired? Sigh. Well I am.

I feel so scared right now. I mean I have things working out for me, but it's my mind that is screwing everything up.What do I do? I can't seem to let go of this bad side of my brain, and it's always haunting my every step, over shadowing what I do and everyone I love. How can I just not be afraid anymore of people leaving me? I just want to trust them so much, but I don't know how to express it. Do I tell them my darkest secrets? What I most fear though is I do this all for attention. But I don't think it is all that way...I think. Maybe, subconsciously I'm a really pathetic girl who is inept at all things and societal standards, and this world just isn't for me. You know...