Boy, am I tired or what? I really am. Of this thing we call "life". I'm just so sick and fed up, sometimes I just want to lay in bed and sleep forever so I don't have to wake up and face it. It just seems so pointless, we fight and bite each other to what? Have more wealth? Be more famous? It all really doesn't matter, we all end up in the same place. Dead. Some earlier than others. I consider those people the luckiest. They don't have to deal with all this fucking dumb crap we call life. People cry at their funerals, not because they are sad they are gone, but the underlying theme of disappointment that it is not them instead that can escape from reality. Now I understand people that take drugs, it is a closer way for them to enter the realm of no more reality, no more life. It must be a relief to have those drugs running through their system.

I'm so tired. I just want to sleep. I don't know why you won't just let me sleep.