How do you recover from a fall from the top of the ladder? Being the huge popular person in elementry, everything went down that spiral when that damn school closed. The past is an unliveable place to be, but I sure damn want to live there. You can lie to your self all you want, but you always know that it is a beautiful lie and you can't kid yourself about it. Admit it. Admit it and let the pain and shame wash over you until you drown within it. You have nothing left to give and nothing to take, so why stay? Just leave, and no one will stop you or shed a single tear. Because that is what happens in this world. One day you will just tip the bottle and swallow them all. Sleep until you never wake again.